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im going to see radiohead.
its going to be so beautiful,i'll probably cry.
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Wednesday, March 26th, 2008
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Im the blacksheep in my family and want to just tell all of them to go fuck themselves.
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Saturday, January 26th, 2008
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I sleep to much
I feel like throwing up,my stomach wont stop twisting in to knots
My head is pounding
I can't stop feeling dizzy
65 hours of working in one week
I'm losing my mind
But some how i'm getting shit taken care of
bills are being payed off
soon I will have a car
I start school soon
I'm establishing myself better at my job
I guess the key is for me to be miserable to want to get shit done??no i dont think so.
I'll be okay eventually,I want to be okay more than anything right now
I will be strong
I will be independent
I have a good idea of who i want to be and what i want to do with my life
its just a matter of figuring out how and actually doing it
my brain is flipping and twisting and seizuring in my head,i dont know how to tame the fucking thing.
I just got off work a little while ago and im sitting here at my aunt cathies house and the people here make me feel like im normal because they're all a little fucked up in the head and we make each other feel sane.I have to work again tonight and I dont know if i'm going to sleep today,I slept from 8am to 9pm yesterday and thats just a little to much sleep and just a little to pathetic.
grow the fuck up jenny.be happy.get a life.stop wallowing in the past,you can't change it you can only grow from it.
uh im insane.im a fucking mess but its probably what i need.
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Saturday, December 29th, 2007
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| Time: | 9:18 pm. |
| Mood: |  distressed. |
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This year has been the worst year.
I can not wait for it to be over!
only two more days!!
christmas was really nice.
Mike got me an Auto harp for christmas and it was the most spectacular thought full gift,I was literally in tears<3<3<3.I love that man for so many different reasons.I also got a purple beach cruiser bike with a black and white seat.Its so old school and beautiful.I want my foot to not be broken so that I can ride it all the time.
I love the quality time that comes from those kind of holidays,even though there shouldn't have to be a holiday where families get together to appreciate one another.Why cant we all be like the french who sit down with eachother for breakfast,lunch and dinner to talk about there days and to digest there food properly,haha?I think that television is a big factor as to why americans dont spend time with there families.I mean if you watch TV now a days its pretty much just brainless crap that just makes you feel stupider and stupider as you watch it.Like MTV for example...how fucking acted out is everything on there!?It makes me god damn sick.fuckin reality tv,bleh!!I admit that I watch TV but my tv watching is very limited to only a few specific things.I just feel like we're a generation of fucking idiots.And then theres the few of us who have a fucking brain who want to see change in our daily lives and and other peoples live not only locally but on a global scale but its just so fucking hard to see any change when we live in a society where what you look like and what you own and so on and so forth are what matter and what make you as a person.Some people are so god damn self involved there not looking at the big picture,there only thinking in the now and not towards the future.I want to do more to help so that I can at least say that I tried instead of just being complety ignorant and oblivious to everything thats happening in our government,in our schools,in other countries,to our environment and so on.I think that my new years reselution is going to be to do something to help somewhere,wether it be donating to ron pauls campaign,donating money to a worhty cause,standing up for something/some one,doing more to get in to womens rights,protesting,Joining a worthy cause,I dont know what it will be but I'm going to do something.This was such a fucking ramble/rant and I hope it made sense because it makes sense in my own head but im kind of scatter brained so hopefully I got some sort of message across.
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Friday, December 14th, 2007
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My mom told me that I could probably get a tattoo for christmas,
im either getting the tree of life or the feminist symbol.Im so freakin excited!
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Friday, November 16th, 2007
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im fucking drunk off of soco and egg nog
god bless the holidays!!!
THANK YOU JESUS HERNANXEX CHRIST
FICLLLLLLLL!!!!YEAH!
I LOBE YOU MICHAEL S WHOTBY
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im fucking drunk off of soco and egg nog
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Saturday, November 10th, 2007
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I Live: in phoenix arizona
I Work: in the emergency room
I Talk: before i think
I Wish: to be an archaeologist
I Enjoy:music
I Look: so young
I Find: life to be so crazy
I Smell: marijuana
I Listen: to regina spektor
I pray: for nothing
I Walk: on the sides of my feet
I Write: stories about cowboys
I See: change
I Sing: like a jazz singer
I Laugh: when im stoned
I Watch: to much lifetime
I Learn: about sick people
I Dream: about crazy things
I Want: go to sleep
I Cry: to easily
I Burnt:my arm the other day
I Read: fiction
I Love: mike
I Sometimes:wish i was some one else
I Fear: losing the people i love
I Hope: i accomplish great things
I Eat: only pasta
I Bathe: almost every day
I Drink: gatorade
I Save: anything to not let me forget
I Hug: people i love
I Meditate: never
I Miss: being little
I Forgive: so easily
I Drive: m broken volvo
I Have: so much that im greatfull for
I Don't: like what the future of the world is looking like
I Kiss: mike
I Believe: in aliens
I am:a spaz
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| Time: | 3:28 pm. |
| Mood: |  lazy. |
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And people make you nervous
You'd think the world is ending,
And everybody's features have somehow started blending
And everything is plastic,
And everyone's sarcastic,
And all your food is frozen,
It needs to be defrosted.
You'd think the world was ending,
You'd think the world was ending,
You'd think the world was ending right now.
You'd think the world was ending,
You'd think the world was ending,
You'd think the world was ending right now.
Well maybe you should just drink a lot less coffee,
And never ever watch the ten o'clock news,
Maybe you should kiss someone nice,
Or lick a rock,
Or both.
Maybe you should cut your own hair
'Cause that can be so funny
It doesn't cost any money
And it always grows back
Hair grows even after you're dead
And people are just people,
They shouldn't make you nervous.
The world is everlasting,
It's coming and it's going.
If you don't toss your plastic,
The streets won't be so plastic.
And if you kiss somebody,
Then both of you'll get practice.
The world is everlasting
Put dirtballs in your pocket,
Put dirtballs in your pocket,
And take off both your shoes.
'Cause people are just people,
People are just people,
People are just people like you.
People are just people,
People are just people,
People are just people like you.
The world is everlasting
It's coming and it's going
The world is everlasting
It's coming and it's going
It's coming and it's going
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Sunday, November 4th, 2007
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| Time: | 2:57 pm. |
| Music: | The Beatles-Something. |
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Regina Spektor tonight.
I'm so stoked to see her sober this time.
I'm going to miss you so so so much.
<3
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